Notes on a Fandom: Last Exit


David Qin– Strangers in Paradise

So yeah, David is a dude, but he played a major role in the love story of Katina “Katchoo” Choovanski and Francine Peters. Katchoo is in love with her straight best friend Francine, who doesn’t exactly know how to return her affections. David comes along, and falls for Katchoo. Katchoo shares a love with David, but it is painfully evident to him, that Katchoo and Francine belong together. Something he facilitates, much to the breaking of his own heart. The beauty in Terry Moore’s Strangers in Paradise is that David isn’t some interloper. He’s a real person with deep affection for the people around him.  Even though the reader roots for Katchoo and Francine to be the OTP, you can’t help but empathize with the unrequited nature of his relationships with these women. When David dies due to lingering complications from injuries sustained in a plane crash, it is tragic and yet, it is in a way his final gift to Katchoo and Francine. They are finally able to move forward and love one another without reservation.

Silvia – Los Hombres de Paco

Yeah, girl, that about sums it up. Source

On a scale of one to 10 on the lesbian fan meter, Silvia’s violent and bloody death on Los Hombres de Paco scores a “WHY GOD WHY?!!” Silvia is shot on her wedding day. Her wedding day, people.  Her wife, Pepe, is helpless to save her and Silvia dies in a pool of blood.  It’s awful. What makes this all the more painful are the loving moments the two women share that lead up to their wedding. Tequila shots and sexy dancing the evening prior. Touching each other’s faces, with closed eyes and whispering dreams of the future right before they walk down the aisle.  The contrast between bliss and brutality truly makes Silvia’s death a fangirl’s worst nightmare.

Commander Shepherd – Mass Effect 3

One hundred forty three hours. I spent 143 hours with Commander (Madeline) Shepherd.  During that time, we saved the universe, fell in love with Dr. Liara T’soni, and made some incredibly difficult decisions.  Near the end of Mass Effect 3, it felt like humanity and our allies might have a shot. We were going to knock some Reaper heads together, heal from our wounds and make some blue babies with our favorite Asari.  Except that we were slowly being indoctrinated by our enemy, and given one of the most devastating endings in video game history, in my opinion. Three options, all no win. I literally screamed at my Xbox, “How can you betray me like this?” The creators of Mass Effect, BioWare, have received a lot of grief about the ending, so much so that they put together a DLC (downloadable content) to stretch out the ending in an attempt at closure. That didn’t work too well either. Many fans that spent endless hours and sleepless nights playing a game that they adored, felt cheated. Mass Effect was particularly notable for its excellent gameplay and inclusivity, making same sex romantic parings available and refreshingly complex. In other words, it was damn addictive. As I watched Commander Shepard perish (by my own hand no less!) my eyes welled up with tears, my hopes for her future dashed. BioWare is coming out with a final DLC this spring, but knowing my Shepard is already gone makes the thought of playing it very bittersweet.

Which character’s death impacted you the most? Was it any of the above? Was it perhaps Maya St. Germaine at the hands of Lyndon “Cousin Nate” James, or Cat MacKenzie, who was unceremoniously run down by a car while texting and walking? Jenny Schecter Mr. Piddles? Let us know in the comments below.

I know, this was a tough one my friends, but it’s important to address the feelings associated with fandom and loss.  Just as there is joy in fandom, there is also pain.  I just hope yours is filled with much more of the former. As always, flail on fangirl. Flail on.

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