Yet another straight girl issue...she has a boyfriend though...

Hello all,

I will try to make this short but it probably isn't going to happen. I am looking for some opinions. I am in my second year of college and decided that I as going to join the rugby team where I met tons of awesome girls but there was one in particular that I developed quite the crush on. This girl (I will call her L) has always been straight and has a boyfriend (of 2 yrs) and from my experiences from last year I told myself that I was going to keep my distance this time and not let her in on the fact that I liked her.

The weeks went on and the two of us became friendlier with one another (we are both rookies so we have to do a lot of stupid stuff together) and started texting occasionally. We went away for Thanksgiving break during which she texted me a few times, just random things. After we got from break our team decided it was going to have a formal/banquet type thing that we could bring dates to and what not. During the week before that she randomly texted me and asked me to be her date as like a joke to which I agreed because I thought it would be funny and we would have a good time. Well by the end of the night we were both pretty intoxicated and ended up falling asleep on the same couch...drunk me ended up feel her up a little (I didnt know I did it...she told me about it a week later) and we cuddled on the couch all night.

After that night we texted one another all day everyday just like joking around with one another and stuff. We met up on a wednesday night for dinner and went to the library for a study session because it was the week before finals. We stayed at the library really late and her dorm was closer so when we finally left around 2 am she said I could just crash in her roommates bed...so i did. I saw her thursday night too. Friday we went out with some friends to a party and I didnt want her to walk home alone so I went to her dorm with her expecting to stay in her roommates bed again. We stayed up for awhile watchin tv and then she turned all the lights off except for in her bedroom hopped up and her bed and just laied there looking at me like she wanted something so I went and got in bed with her..nothing happened we just cuddled and fell asleep.

Saturday night before finals was our teams holiday party so we found ourselves back at the rugby house...drinking. We had been teasing one another and she kept putting frosting/chocolate syrup on my face and what not. We were sitting in the kitchen next to each other and with my drunken courage found myself with my hands on her thighs talking to her which is when she texted me (we were in a room full of people) asking me if I liked her and of course I said yes, she just smiled and said she could tell. The playfulness between us continued all night. I ended drinking a little too much so a friend brought forced me into the closed bathroom and L was in there because she wasn't feeling too well either. My friend closed the door behind her and left the two of us in there. L and I chatted a bit and the next thing I know she is kissing me...I didn't even see it coming. It was quick because our other friend came in so I didn't really have much time to react. I don't really remember the rest of the night but her and I were cuddled on the couch talking and another girl on the team kept yelling hand check. When I woke up she was on top of me on the couch so I kissed her forehead she smiled and then we went back to sleep.

Now it's the Sunday before finals. We had both gone back to our respective places to shower and nap and what not. I was super bored and my roommate was bothering me so I texted L and she said I could come over so I did. We hung out and watched tv while she attempted to study...next thing I know it has gotten really late (I swear being with her is like some sort of time warp) and I was falling asleep. She saw that I was tired and said she didn't think it was a good idea for me to drive home because she didnt want me to fall asleep at the wheel. She was finally done studying and went into her room and hopped up on to her bed and gave me that look again. So I went in and sat on the end of her bed and we chatted for a little bit then she just randomly stated that I could stay in her bed with her if I wanted to so I said ok and turned the lights out and hopped into bed. Again nothing happened other than cuddling all night. She had to get up early for a final and I was going to leave when she did but she said I could sleep longer if I wanted to and then she asked if I was going to disappear on her and I told her no. She got back from her final and hopped back in to bed, we cuddled up and went back to sleep. We spent the entire day in bed, when we finally woke up we watched a movie and ordered some pizza. Again the next thing I know its really late and she was ready to go to bed. I asked if she wanted me to leave but she didn't say anything so we turned the lights off and hopped under the covers. I couldn't take it anymore, I needed to kiss her or something. So as the shy cowardly person I am I told her that I was having thoughts that I probably shouldn't be having. We had a ten minute discussion about it. She turned to face me a couple times but I couldn't bring myself to do anything about said thoughts (pathetic I know) so she ended up kissing me (even more pathetic, it was my first kiss ever while sober). Well that one little kiss turned into a 4 hour makeout session. The next day (Tuesday) when we finally woke up she said that we couldn't stay in bed all day today because she had to go to the library and study for her exams. I was being stubborn and didnt want to get out of bed so she went and sat on the couch to get me out there (it worked). I sat on the couch next to her and started putting on my shoes when she rested her head on my shoulder and grabbed my hand. I turned and kissed her and told her she wasn't making me want to leave any faster. She stood up I stood up, we kissed again and then I sat down. She went over and sat on the other couch but dropped her phone in the process which i picked up and put on the table which is when her boyfriend started calling she told me i should probably go so i kissed her again and left.

I saw her on wednesday for dinner. She came over on thursday and stayed till like 4 am we cuddled and watched tv (I tried to kiss her but she pulled away so I didn't try again). Friday afternoon I went over to her room we watched some tv, went and got dinner than went to the rugby house. Teasing and being playful and what not the entire time. It had gotten to be relatively late so we left the house and went back to my room where we cuddled in bed watching tv. We kissed quite a bit but she would like cut it off before it go to be a makeout session (probably because we both said that we felt kind of guilty about it because she has a boyfriend). But she still initiated the majority of the kisses. I finally brought her back to her room around 4 am and she gave me a kiss good bye. Saturday we both left to go home for break. She lives 6 hours away and thats where her boyfriend is so they are long distance when she is at school. We have texted all day every day since break started and are both excited to get back to school and see one another.

I guess I am just asking for peoples opinions on all of it. Like do I have a chance with this girl? I don't condone cheating and I told myself that I wouldn't ever be the reason a girl cheats on someone but there is just something about her that shuts out all those thoughts from my brain. She has told me that I complicate things for her and she doesn't know what to do about it...but it was in a joking manner. I just don't know what to do about it all...

Thank you for reading such a long post...I guess I am not good at keeping things short...