My story....

Im not a very good writer but bare with me....

This past summer I fell in love with this amazing women, shes passionate and beautiful, intense and  understanding. she change my world and the way I think about the universe. she fulfilled me mentally and physically, she is everything I want. But as my world sounds so perfect it is far from it...

I am 22  years old and I have no control over my own life, im not proud to say it but it is true :(. The story about me and my love starts with both of us at the end of a passing relationship. her having been in a 6 year relationship and me in a 4 month complication dosnt really matter much in this story but see she was my sisters best friend at the time (that should of been a red flag but it wasn't) and she is a bit older than me, she's 30 ( age is just a number to me) but during the time that we were supose to heal, we found and saw eachother in a diffrent light.

as we noticed and grew fond of eachother we knew there was complications but at the time we thought that the feelings that we had would just be what it was. an actracion that we wanted to see where it would take us. the complication was my sister and my mother, i wasnt out to my mom yet and even though being at the age i am i wasnt aloud to go out at nite, my mother keeps me on a leash because she gets so scared and thinks the worst is going to happen to me:( and we also were afraid to tell my sister her best friend. My sister is a whole diffrent story (but know that my sister at this time was kind and open until pure jelousy took over her) eventually she found out and told us she was ok with it (it was a lie) and with my mom i espected to do what i had been doing hiding...but as time past me and my girlfriend to be fell in love and we were not especting it. now for her going from being so free to love and then coming to a basketcase wasnt easy we would fight about it and how much she wanted more of me but i could not give it to her :(

Finally i could not take it anymore and if i wanted to keep her i needed to change so i came out to my mom...she had already knew but then i told her who I loved and she did not like it because of the age diffrence. she said i wouldnt understand and that i had a lot to learn and i agreed but i knew my girlfriend loved me and she understood me. so things went a little smoother from there but there was still things i couldnt do like spend the nite at her place and little stuff that is really big in relationships

i was still a animal caged and all i can get was visitors....i wasnt happy with my situation i needed more i wanted to love her to the fullest...later my family started to see a change in me and they didnt like it. i wasnt this innocent little child that that see me as, i am more. i wanted to show them i was an adult but that lead to kaos and lies and hatred ...my sister is very jelouse of me, im the youngets and she is the middle child so since she knew my girlfriend longer (7 years) she spread lies to my family told them the most horrific things about my girlfriend and i have no power i couldnt stop it....everything i had worked for had been lost, i was nothing but a child again and they forbid me to see her anymore... i was broken and torn after that id still had contact with my girlfriend but very small...all this had hurt her and she didnt know what to do about it....my family now thinks i was crazy for loving this women...and they see crying is a weakness and therefore i am weak ..they threaten her and told her that they would hurt her if they ever saw us together ...i said i would call the cops on them but that lead to more chaos they drown me with there hatred and anger for saying that, for even thinking it ...i was punish for protecting her...i tried to runaway but they chase after me ....my heart broke and i had felt like i didnt exist...

more time has passed and me and my love have thought of ways to be together.... but now its all up to me to become an adult for me to rise above but the pain is strong and it overwhelmed us we are in love more then ever,( i even want to merry her) but the obstcals are to great... and we have decided that for this time in place it would be best to let go..to save the happy memories we still have and hope that one day when i get my freedom i will find her and merry her.

and i am here telling our story because the pain that i feel is sublime and i hope that i can be strong and do what i promised and claim my freedom....

I love you Laira.....