Okay girls...I think I need some advice.
I woke up this morning to a lovely email from my ex. Ex-boyfriend. If you have seen "Imagine Me & You," well that was my relationship; and how it ended. He was an amazing guy, which was why I stayed with him so long, but there was always something missing and I was increasingly unhappy. Blah blah blah I met a girl, came out of the closet, broke up with boy, and broke boy's heart. Well I thought he hated me, and I was okay with that because I felt like it evens things out since I am the one who hurt him. So how should I reply to this email? I have no interest in guys, I am over my ex, and I am finally happy. I just care about him still so I don't want to say something that's going to hurt him more.
Here's what he wrote me:
So, it's really late, and I had to get something off my chest. I can't sleep right now and had to let you know something. Every once and awhile I will stay up real late thinking about things the way they used to be. I figure if I lay everything out on the table, I might not think about it as much.I think about you a good amount I would say. I mean I have been living alone for about 2 and a half months now. It's been weird that you are not here. I think about the old apartment and how we used to be. It's weird because I feel like half of me hates you a good bit. The other half remembers when everything was good. I feel like I try to force myself to forget about you and tell myself that I am over you, but I know it's not really true. I think I try to make myself hate you because then I can feel like everything is ok and that I am better off. I feel like I am trying to delete you from my life, but it's not going to work. I untagged all photos that you and I are in together. I deleted you from my phone. I gave you back any and all photos that I had of you when you picked up your things. It doesn't erase you from my mind.
I still wonder if everything you are going through is just a phase. I mean, I guess I hoped that it is. I try to tell myself that I wouldn't take you back, but I don't know if or when I would ever be given the chance. So, I can't really know.
I probably had some more things going on in my head, but I figure this is enough for now. I just wanted to let you know I guess. I'm not really expecting a reply or anything. I don't think I really want to see you or anything like that either. This was just something I wanted to tell you. I hope you are doing well. I hope you are happy.
I would really appreciate advice from someone who has been in this position before. This made me cry this morning. Thanks in advance
