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What did he mean ancd why in god's name did I have to kiss him!

So, I was out drinking with work colleagues tonight.. There's a guy at work who has a very flirtatious manner. I suffer from the same affliction and so we always flirt. I know that he's attracted to me and although I live his personality and I can honestly say that even with his smile he brightens my day,I am not attracted to him. We were out and drinking, he kept saying that I should "come out of myself at work" but so long as my friends and family know the real me it's ok... I know that there was a rumor about me at work. I think that I should not have kissed him. The rumor was in the back of my mind the whole time. Again, I felt little or no physical attraction. My lack of physical response alarms me, if anything and I hesitate to use the correct adjective I felt the opposite. I now wonder how bi li really am? I kissed him to dispel a rumor which I am fairly certain he knew about. I sm disgusted by my actions. He's a great guy and I don't want to mislead him, What if the life I have envisaged for myself is all wrong and I belong with a girl? I am not afraid of this but hope there is someone for me. What am I doing!?
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Submitted by
Meisce (122 posts)
on July 17, 2009 - 7:23pm.
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MareNectaris's picture

Regardless of what your

Submitted by
MareNectaris (13 posts)
on July 17, 2009 - 10:25pm.

Regardless of what your "true" sexual orientation is, if you're not attracted to someone, you shouldn't kiss them or as you put it, mislead them. Maybe tell him the truth, you think he's a great guy but your reasons for kissing him weren't entirely genuine?

And since when does not being attracted to ONE guy mean you're not bisexual? Also why all the fear about which label is right for you? Take your time and figure out what turns you on and what doesn't. If you're meant to be with a girl you'll be with a girl, and if not you won't.

dotdot's picture

Word.

Submitted by
dotdot (112 posts)
on July 18, 2009 - 12:38am.
Word.
KayJ's picture

Entire dictionary.

Submitted by
KayJ (162 posts)
on July 28, 2009 - 12:19pm.
Entire dictionary.
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Maybe you really are attracted to him?

Submitted by
desertchick (38 posts)
on July 19, 2009 - 2:36am.

I thought of myself as a lesbian all my life until I met my boyfriend, who just changed the way I saw everything. I was so afraid of liking him that I would tell myself that my flirting and everything was just me wanting to be friends with such a good person.

You said you love his personality, his smile brightens your day, etc. Seriously, are you sure you're NOT attracted to him? Because that's a lot to say about someone you only have platonic feelings for. This just reminds me of how I was thinking and feeling when I was trying to come to grips with the fact that I liked a boy. Just something to think about, you know?  

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Honestly I

Submitted by
Nodame (926 posts)
on July 21, 2009 - 10:46pm.

Honestly I normally am not too forgiving of ppl who lead others on or use other people in an intimate way for whatever reason.  And you used that man, I won’t be nice in stating that. But have you thought that maybe you just aren’t attracted to him in particular and it has nothing to do with his entire gender?

You’re making some interesting generalizations because you seem to be frantic and almost like you are trying to prove something to yourself. Take some time off, get your head right.


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