It doesnt always mean the worst..does it?

Soo i've been through the whole falling for your 'straight friend' and it not working out and vice versa. Few years back one of my best friends fell for me, and i felt exactly the same but due to basically being a wimp, I bottled it and ran away from it all - which i still regret due to what i put her through. A year after that i fell for my best friend at work and it all came out after a night at a club together and she basically felt the same, but reacted the same way i did the year before and bottled it. Karmas a bitch I guess.

Anyway, since then i've tried to just ignore anything to do with close close friends due to it..well, always ending in tears and anger and broken friendships. However, I cant and dont stop thinking about one of my good friends who ive known for a while now. Theres always been something different I found with our friendship but I just dont want this again. I really dont know what to do or if it even means anything..I mean, it might be nothing right...though im guessing thats just wishful thinking. When I actually think about the possibility of it, it makes me laugh as it just seems weird. But your subconscious tends to tell you more than you often realise...

I've just answered my own question havent I?

Balls.