Bisexual or gay?

I wasn't really sure what writing this would achieve, but I thought maybe someone feels this way too.

I go back and forward as to whether I consider myself bisexual or gay. Like with women, when I fall for a girl I really fall for her. But with a guy, I think all I've ever felt is a crush. It's not ever as intense and I've never enjoyed kissing a guy, but the few times I've kissed girls I've definitely felt something. I thought with more experiences with both I could figure it out, but it seems to have confused me more.

I'm not sure really how to figure this out, if maybe I'm settling because it's easier to be with guys since there seem to be absolutely no gay women around. But I do find some guys attractive, and it always surprises me when I do.

I'm not bothered by who I fall for, but there's a nagging part of me that wants to define myself as either bisexual or gay but I don't feel I'm either. Feelings for men are rare for me and it's not the same as I fall for women. But it seems everytime I settle with being gay I'll get a crush on a guy.

I think I mostly just wanted to express that, but I'd like to know if anyone feels the same.