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Bisexual or gay?

I wasn't really sure what writing this would achieve, but I thought maybe someone feels this way too.

I go back and forward as to whether I consider myself bisexual or gay. Like with women, when I fall for a girl I really fall for her. But with a guy, I think all I've ever felt is a crush. It's not ever as intense and I've never enjoyed kissing a guy, but the few times I've kissed girls I've definitely felt something. I thought with more experiences with both I could figure it out, but it seems to have confused me more.

I'm not sure really how to figure this out, if maybe I'm settling because it's easier to be with guys since there seem to be absolutely no gay women around. But I do find some guys attractive, and it always surprises me when I do.

I'm not bothered by who I fall for, but there's a nagging part of me that wants to define myself as either bisexual or gay but I don't feel I'm either. Feelings for men are rare for me and it's not the same as I fall for women. But it seems everytime I settle with being gay I'll get a crush on a guy.

I think I mostly just wanted to express that, but I'd like to know if anyone feels the same.


ice cream's picture

i dont feel the same but

i dont feel the same

but ur bisexual

m totally into weman

 

thelionqueen's picture

are you asking bisexual or gay

or are you asking straight or gay?

maybe you should just deal with being bisexual; you're just a sexual fluid person. i suggest you read some of those "im confused" threads in the bisexual secton because there are lots of them. same 'o, same 'o, "im confused and blah, blah" it goes on from there. but yeah, i suggest you take a look at those.

if you like both then you like both. get over it or you're gonna end up pulling out your hair because of it.

Neisha's picture

Ever heard of Kinsey scale?

Ever heard of Kinsey scale?
MakeMeLaugh's picture

this is the problem

if I may be completely honest the problem i think is your need to label yourself. society wants to put a label on you because they need to somehow categorize everyone otherwise there would be no need to fill out stupid demographic info on anything. check here if you are this ...check this if you are that.... don't be in a rush to label yourself and you wont overthink anything you do. in the end you will figure yourself out even if "you" doesnt fit into a neat little category. be accepting of yourself just how you are and everyone will too. good luck!

"you have the voice of an angel, your voice is like a combination of fergie and jesus"

 

Yakka's picture

Well said.

I second this.

Nona J.'s picture

I agree!

I third that!

" True enjoyment comes from activity of the mind and exercise of the body; the two are ever united" ~ Wilhelm von Humbolt

Lost's picture

I fourth that!

I fourth that!

Kaaaaatie's picture

Amen.

Amen to that (;

No need to catergorise, i mean, sometimes it just makes you feel worse, you are what you are (: i sometimes feel the same way, i just think you fall for who you fall for, that's it.

and i think if yer need comforting, check out the kinsey scale, that might help you out slightly maybe? ^_^

Sara's picture

I agree

There's no need to hurry up and categorize yourself. I've heard, and experienced, that some bi women shift towards the sexuality of the relationship they're currently in or towards the sexuality of their crush. I'm currently in a relationship with a woman and I feel quite neutral to men, like I could identify permanently as a lesbian, and the same thing happened when I was with a guy, I felt more straight.

I personally thing bisexuality is a beautiful thing, we have the capability to fall in love with either gender. Just don't be in a hurry to categorize yourself, just do what feels natural and you'll be fine.

kalena's picture

I can identify completely with you.

I identify myself as a lesbian because I am aesthetically attracted to girls and I check out girls like other girls would check out guys, HOWEVER, last summer I had a relationship with my best friend who happens to be equipped with *gasp* boy parts and I did have sex with him on a regular basis and even enjoyed it. However, I do not think that makes me bisexual because I did not find him attractive until I started developing emotional feelings for him. In fact, he's not exactly male model material at all, he was a typical hairy, smelly (ok actually he smelled very good), typical straight male but he was the most attractive person in the world to me. However, we broke up not too long ago and I have started dating women again I still identify as a lesbian but I keep my eyes and heart open in case another situation like the one I had before comes along.

So the moral of my story (lol) is "follow your heart" (cheesey I know). We're humans and not machines we don't have built in guidelines and settings to control what happens in our lives so just do whatever and whomever you please and dont worry about it. Just continue to experiment and keep an oipen mind and eventually it will all settle itself out don't force it on yourself to make a decision you're not ready to make

The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of.

Lucia Firenze's picture

i feel the same way.

but i know im bisexual because i love straight sex :D haha

perhaps i use guys to much?

lol ne way guys are hot.... girls are sexy

id give my heart to a girl tho. because i know it wont be wasted when i find the one

sarah's picture

i know im gay have always

i know im gay have always been  i can look at a man they just do nothing for me. However i do agree with what most p[eople say there is no need to labell your sen, At the end of the day from what i have read and my understanding of it, for you it seems to be the person you fall at the time that is in front of you, irrapective of gender and theres nothing wrong with that. Most of my ex girlfriends have been bi and not many people understand it it makes them confused, and i said to them what i have just writtain above. NO matter whator who you are attracted to its a beautiful thing and just enjoy it.Sorry to get on my soap box just dont understand the need for labels. Apologies for spellings im crap at it.
mini526's picture

5 on the kinsey

 well, i ask myself the same question, but only because i dont know what to pick in my AE profile when it asks your sexuality...

i now consider myself 95% lesbian because i still do double takes when i see a hot guy, but i just cant picture myself with a guy. once in a blue moon if the opportunity arises i have straight sex but i just cant connect with men. with them i feel kind of empty inside, poor things. i know that now more than ever, even though i always thought i was bi before. so i think im a 5 on the kinsey. so in my profile, does that make me gay or bi? lol

 

 heres the link for the kinsey scale:  http://www.kinseyinstitute.org/resources/ak-hhscale.html

Bi-Lesbian: a woman who can be butch or femme interchangeably. :P