Okay...WTH?!

Hey ladies!

Let's start this off with The Girl. She's beautiful! She's got long dark wavy hair, big brown eyes, and the cutest smile ever! [addicted-much? Ha! Maybe.]We'll call her McSexy :)

I met her in my biology class and at first glance she didn't catch my attention much. During the break i went to the restroom and when i got out i saw her standing their waiting. As i was washing my hands she asked me if i'd taken bio 1 yet and i told her no, she hasn't either and said that we should work together bc people said this class is hard. Ok. 

Yea it's boring so far, but wait!

So a few weeks of her glancing my way and smiling goes by and she finally speaks to me again. Nothing too interesting, i think it was aboiut our lab. She was my friend's lab partner (acquaintance really) so the 3 of us often worked together in class. One day in class we were assigned to work in groups and she turned her desk right next to mine. Throughout the class she asked me if i was in a relationship, i told her no, she asked why, i told her i wasn't ready, and she just said, exactly "It's surprising to me that you're not in a relationshi" [What does that even mean?] I asked her if she had a bf and she said kind of. Anyway, so i just smiled and continued with my work.

Anyway! So after 2 months of here-and-there smiles and glances at one other and casual flirtatious conversations, i suddenly fall for this girl, hard. We exchanged numbers earlier in the year and texted before but only about what we'd miss in the class. But this one conversation was different:

McSexy: hey you weren't in class today, it was really boring!
Me: It's always boring :) But yea i didn't get much sleep last night so i couldn't wake up. Did i miss much?
MS: Lol why did you have a long night? And no, justsome notes butyou can copy mine
Me: okay thanks. It was sort of a long night, but really just too lazy to get up.
MS: I could've brought you coffee this morning :)
Me: That's sweet of you but i dont think it would've helped, It's hard to get me up in the morning
MS: I know something that would definitely get you up ;)
Me: And whats that?
MS: me.
Me: huh? as in....
MS: next time call me when you can't get up and you'll see :)

OF course i never took that seriously so i just continued being lazy and missing class. The thing she is a totally different person on the phone than she is in person with someone else there and it's freakin confusing!

So midterms were coming up and she texted me that she wanted to get together to do the review,m i said yes and asked if she'd told 'H' our other friend yet, she said yes but she couldn't make it but i later learned that she never asked. We met up at her apartment and just got to work. There wasn't very much conversation going on, like i said, totally different girl, it was kinda awkard being there. We finished really late and i got my stuff together to leave but she insisted that i stayed since it was 2am and we had class at 8am. Thinking that it was weird i said that i had no clothes so i left. 

When i got home she sent me a text: "next time bring your clothes so you can stay. that way you don't have to drive back and forth" I just said okay.

So fastforward and it's final exam time so we decided to all get together (the 3 of us) again at her apartment. This time we didnt finish till 3:30in the morning so me and H decided to stay.

I got the vibe, like some of you guys are getting from this girl that she maybe kinda liked me. I had trouble sleeping with H's snoring so i just laid there. McSexy comes out of her room and came to sit next to me on the couch. We talked a bit and then the unthinkable [maybe not so surprising] thing happens, she leans in to kiss me! She started to take off my shirt and I her's but H's tossing and turning stopped us both. It was weird, we just looked at each other and she said sorry and left.

After the finals i didn't hear from her so one night i was at a party, drinking, and decided to text her..
Me: hey i haven't heard from you in awhile, how've you been?
MS: good. and you?
Me: good. okay lets get to the point, can we talk about what happened before?
MS: there's nothing to talk about. It was a mistake. I'm not even like that.
Me: oh, okay. I understand.

But in my head i was really thinking, BTCH! How can you lead me on all semester and then when i finally fall for you just leave me hanging?!

I can't stop thinking about her now. I felt nothing for her, then i fall for her, and now i'm so angry with her but that only makes me want her even more [weird right?]
What do you guys think? i seriously can not stop thinking about this girl!!! What should i do?!