I am sooo confused............. help? (bi? bi-curious? straight?)(friends?friends with benifits?play toy?)

www.myspace.com/lunakiss7

 Trust me your're not gay b/c of this statement :

I dont know I just really admire her, and want to get to know her better, and yet Ive never felt this way with any other girl. I dont have a fantasy of me being with her, or having sex with her... Infact I cant imagine it at all.... I just want to be close to her, and to make her happy.

So relax, girl. You're not gay nor are you bi. You're just a straight girl who admires another girl like a sister.  If your heart doesn't beat fast or your stomach feel like it it's going to sink or fly away when she is near you. You're not gay or bi.  So relax. Just b/c some girl touches you doesn't make you gay. You're overestimating and examining your sexuality too much. Plus,just b/c she's bi doesn't make you bi.

I know... it wasnt that i found out she was bi... and then flipped, it just made me think more about myself...

and i probably an self analyzing to much... its a bad trait of mine.....

I dont know ive just been really curious about this... and Im doubting my self a lot, so i dont really know what Im doing.

"If your heart doesn't beat fast or your stomach feel like it it's going to sink or fly away when she is near you." The thing is ive never felt like this with a guy..... I mean I enjoy being around guys and dancing with them... but ive never felt like this with anyone......

But thank you Im not sure if thats reassuring or simply helpful... I dont really know anymore... Im really unsure of everything in my life right now so that may be it, but Ive been thinking about her for the past month..... which is sort of extreme for me i think?

But thank you very much for your help

I (up until this year) had always considered my self straight. And i always did the oh man, i wish i knew her, or was friends with her. I wish i had her ___. And then i kind of experimented with my friend while being quite drunk (a few times actually), and ended really liking her... but that would be another story. I'm new at being bisexual, and it took me along time to realize it. I think you got to let it sit with you, you can't really rush it. and maybe you should talk to ur friend, tell her what you're feeling. She might help. :D

i believe but you have a while to discover your sexual identity. besides you can not turn into something is not already apart of you. there is asaying that if you cover a glass house in dirt and you clean it then it will become transparent. well that is basically how we are as people we are all confused during times in our lives and we let go of our confusion to become transparent to allow people to see us for who we are. but in the end you are who you are no labels intended. you are still young live it up.

True I dont really know .... I did talk to her and ask her how she knew. She said to me that she just knew.... and she had known for a long time.

I dont know at all, and Ive just never felt that butterfly feeling with anyone... I have trouble letting go, or trusting people not to hurt me mainly because of my childhood.

So I just dont know how I feel or how I should re-act or anything. I aim or text with her often...

Also could you answer this ?:

We went to parties and dances together with other friends, and she didnt do anything with any guys or girls, she just kind of stood there. I danced with some guys, and some guy came up and tried to freak with me at one point, and make out with me. I avoiding the kiss and looked into her eyes trying to get her to come save me, but she just gave me a sad smile and walked away. which really confused me. I was freaking with another guy and I asked her if she wanted to join me and she simply said, if you want me to?

I was was just like well if you want to ?

She just kept dancing with herself? sort of..... I dont know.... Does that mean anything or am i just analizing to much again?

she didnt dance with any guys or girls, she just sort of stood there in my general area for most of the time that night. Other times she just sort of is there like a wall flower

But it kind of sounds like she likes you... and doesn't think you're into her... thus the sad smile? 

 Does anyone else agree? Cuz i might be crazy...

 but it kind of does... 

and p.s. i've never gotten that butterfly feeling either.  

She might like you and the other friends...so that is why she goes...but maybe she doesn't like it when some random person tries to make out with you.

I would ask her.  Mention how you noticed her standing over to the side...and ask her if she likes going to the parties or not.

Today we went on a field trip together. We ate lunch with a few of our friends. We hung out... and when we sat down as we watched performances things changed:

So I was sitting next to her, and our shoulders were touching...

softly, she did something she'd really done before...

She leaned her head onto my shoulder tenativly and then pulled away.

I didnt really react, and she did this once more...

this time I leaned my head onto hers

She pulled a way after a few seconds, and I sat straight again... She leaned again.. and I leaned too...

and we stopped and started for a while.... Each time for longer

She pulled up my shirt, which was falling down exposing a bit of my bra, she didnt say anythign she just reached over... (shocking for me... never had that happen before)

We were leaning like that, and she whispered,"I have a weird question"

I said"ask me?"

*silence*

"are you a good kisser" to which I replied" I dont know? find out"

-her -laughing"what?"

me "I mean ask an ex of mine or something.... how should i know"

me"are you?"

her"how should I know.... Ive only kissed someone once"

me"sober"

her"completely her too"

me"her?"

we continued talking on that line... she said she'd kissed once... a girl.. and she was really nervous.

I asked her if shed kissed a guy, "no"

why no" thats a good question"

I asked her how she'd kissed "french"

who? "someone you wouldnt know"

So random other conversation... along the above lines... her asking questions.. me asking questions.. etc...

She was playing with her hands... and after a while i put my hand out palm up close to hers, and she put her hand in mine... I massaged her hand for a while, and moved down around her arm.

She told me liked it when nails were dragged softly across her arm... which I then did.

I played with her arm for quite a while... We made random jokes to eachother... etc.... 

When we were leaving she lightly grabbed that back of my shirt and followed me out. While we were walking out she wrapped her arm around my waist for alittle while.

We talked on the way back ......

So please explain some more... WTF is going on....

What am i?

Im going on a date tonight with a guy... and I'm ?flirting? with a friend.... 

Im soo confused...

Where does she stand? 

Who does she like? the girl she kissed? Someone else? is she just playing with me?

Im getting more and more confused.... It started out friendly but it got more and more touchy... 

It seems to me that she could be into you, but the more important question is: How did you feel when all this was happening? Did you feel excited? Nervious? Turned on? Turned off? Disgusted? Did you want to kiss her? Did you want her to kiss you?

For me personally, I thought I was straight until I held hands with one of my friends. And, even though I never had any indication of attraction for her before, I wanted to kiss her. And around the same time when I held my then boyfriend's hand, I felt gross and uncomfortable. But, that is just my experience. :p 

I'm just guessing. But, it sounds like your friend may be asking about how well you kiss because she may be hoping that you will kiss her. And perhaps trying to bring it about in a "random" way would be safer. Perhaps, she's even hoping that if you do kiss her you might "discover" that you actually like her. Just my two cents...

Maybe you should ask her if she wants to try, i.e. if you want to too...

I felt nervous and i liked it in a weird way i guess... but i did, when she touched my waist i felt shivers through my spine... But Im not sure if i could ever be forward enough to kiss her..... Lean against her, play with her hand and arm... but idk.

But what do i say/what do i do?

To find out... and even then why did she bring up her 1st kiss, which was recent...

and talk about how she kissed the girl and was nervous etc... 

but it really does sound like she likes you. and it kind of sounds like you might like her too...? But don't feel like you have to jump to any conclusions. She probably brought up her first kiss and talking about it, etc. to try and keep it friendly. The "are you a good kisser" question probably made her think that she made it really awkward, and she was dropping too many hints. so she had to neutralize it with that. but i do think she likes you. 

And if you want to kiss her, but don't have the guts to do it. Get drunk/tipsy (so you have control) and do it. I know that sounds really sleazy to say on my part. but it works! but don't get wasted. not good when wasted.  

she talked to me nicely and she somehow she asked, and i admited i liked her. I relized she doesnt like anyone at the moment, (though i suspect she likes a friend of ours)

So am i bi, bi-curious, or just funny about 1 person

So, we barely speak now. we have a class together but we kind of avoid eachother. For this and other reasons. Shes bi, and happy with it, and im wondering if i am. I am currently dating a new guy and its been going on for a good while now... But the thing is, i know i really like him... yet i dont know if i love him. For some odd reasons i keep thinking about her. Its not sexual like i dont think of having sex with her the way i think/consider having sex with my bf. I was trying to move on, and things just happened with him but heres how i feel:

With him:

I feel safe and happy in his arms

I get turned on (were virgins so we kind of just fool around)

I care about how he feels, and try to make him happy

Im relaxed, and we can talk about anything

around her:

Im nervous, and hurt (" i never hurt you to hurt you" (from her)... ) but things happened and she did (not necesarrily for this reason, we had other things going on between us.

I want to please her, make her happy, i want to talk to her.

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Its odd, i mean i dont think i love him, and i think its because theres something about her that attracts me and i just cant seem to move on. I dont know why but i think about her, and i just want to be around her.