Personally I haven't had an experience like that but I tend to think about death and its inevitability on a weekly basis. I think you may have anxiety and possibly some post traumatic stress. I'm not a doctor but when my mind became somewhat obsessive with trying to understand things and various concepts and reactions from every angle it tends to be overwhelming and much like PTS. I wouldn't say that you're the only one but I agree I do worry about my girlfriend dying in some accident or something happening to her and it certainly worries me but its not a constant fear. Yeah...it seems like you have a lot of anxiety...maybe you should talk to your girlfriend or a nurse practitioner about it because if you get really emotional that it disrupts you immensely that can't be good. Then again you could be an emotional person who wears heir heat on their sleave. So the dream thing again would lead me to think of PTS because I appearently had it and it took me years to figure it all out even after the events...perhaps you could look into it or talk to a counselor if ones available.

I think that when someone close to you dies when your so young it's bound to have some effect on you. My mum died when I was 11 and it made me very aware of mortality. I sometimes think about the fact that poeple in my family could die and I fill up with fear. However I think it's important to turn these emotions into something more positive, use them to stop you from taking life and your girlfriend/family/freinds for granted.

I agree with LoveLillianGish you could try councelling if you haven't already, it can take years for the full force of grief to hit you and when it does it can help to talk to someone who can give you a different perspective on things.

I had a nightmare about my parents dying about 2 years ago. I don't remember what happened exactly but they were dying and I cried uncontrollably in my dream. Then suddenly I woke up and realized my mum was lying next to me and I was so happy to realize it was only a dream.

Sometimes I still had nightmares about something bad happen to my mum or dad and I cried a lot. It's kinda weird 'cause I don't really ever cry in real life but I cry so easily in my dreams.

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""My love life is terrible. The last time I was inside a woman was when I visited the Statue of Liberty."

You're not the only one, and you shouldn't worry.

When you're very young, it's almost impossible to deal with the loss of someone that important to you. Most kids will pick up with their lives and carry the loss with them, only to be confronted with feelings of fear and sadness later in life. Google 'delayed grief'; the descriptions might be familiar to you.

It's possible that something happened to you recently that made you remember how devastated you were when your friend passed away. Maybe caring so much about your girlfriend made you remember that no matter how important people are to you, you can't always keep them safe. Maybe these feelings only surfaced recently because you are ready to deal with them now. You are no longer a child, and ready to work through them.

I wouldn't get too upset about the dreams you have been having. I'd advise you to just feel afraid, to just feel sad, and to understand that it's okay to feel this way. Talk to your girlfriend about what's going on, if you can. The dreams might very well go away over time.

I do speak from personal experience, and realize your case might be different. If you get so 'freaked out' that these feelings begin to interfere with your daily life (you can't do the things you would like to do, or can't help doing things you don't want to do) then you should find someone to help you work things out.

Stay safe, and good luck.

"I think we can't expect to be understood, and we can't expect to understand each other, if we don't tell each other our stories." - Ani DiFranco