First of all, I want to let you know that I don't feel I need your forgiveness per se.  I guess I just want to kind of fess up to some of the bigoted things I did while I was running from my sexuality.  Some things I am a little ashamed of maybe.  I know that I am a bigger person now than I was when I did these things, but fessing up can be so healing!

I'm sorry I voted to ban gay marraige in Missouri.  I did not truly understand how important of an issue this is at the time.  I thought it was primarily semantics when in all actuality, it isn't.

I'm sorry I said horrible things about lesbian women, or those I suspected of being lesbian in an attempt to draw attention away from my suspicions about myself.

I'm sorry I treated sexuality like a disease, something that could be caught, an infection of sorts.

The things you do when you are paranoid about getting found out by other and by yourself is so strange.  How you will treat others who have done absolutely nothing to you, talk smack behind peoples backs, deride people for being how you are.  For about 3 and a half years I denied that I am a lesbian all the while in some part of my mind KNOWING that I am a lesbian, and it scared me because it is so far from the conservative Christian beliefs I was raised with and hold so dear.  In running from these feelings I might have hurt some people.  Maybe not to their face, but by talking behind their back, or by perpetuating stereotypes which are horrible and so wrong.  In the 3 or so weeks I have been honest with myself and have started dealing with "this whole liking girls thing"  I have learned so much from people on these forums, and I am thankful for that.  So, I thought I would apologize in general, to the community at large as best I can.

Peace :)