Confused about Bi-Women

When I write this topic, I assure you all that I mean no insult or harm. I'm just very confused about something.

Is it just me, or is Bi-sexually by far the most confusing sexual-orientation? I'm serious. My love is bi-sexual. And I have to say that everytime I think about her with a male, or any female at that rate, I feel repulsed. lol. I'm not sure how thats going to sound, and it's probably a grand thing for my love not to read this. But... it's something I just don't understand.

Why or how can a female be "straight" one moment than
"gay" it up the next? Can a lesbian and bi-sexual have a long and fulifilling relationship? What happens to the lesbian when the bi-sexual decides she wants a male?

When I first met nancee, I didn't think I could ever touch her... she had endured the most[ by my standards] the most repulsive and disguising thing... penal to vaginal penetraction.... [suppose Im a wee bit of a "male hater"... not much but some]... it took us a while for me to get over it, and at times, when we walk in the mall or down the streets, and I notice her "checking" some guys out, I get disturbed... I'm just curious if this is comon with bi-sexual females?

Am I the only lesbian out there who finds it repulsive in yet finds themselves in love with one? lol. Ironic, no?

I just wonder if I'll ever get over it. Don't get me wrong, I love men... GAY men! Suppose cause they're not a threat? She's dated a great deal o men, and had "encounters with them"... whos' to say she won't go back to wanting them?

hah, this sinple yet conplicated question has turned into a series of little things, lol. But I suppose the most important and the genuine question was...

CAN A BI-SEXUAL FEMALE LIVE A HAPPY LIFE WITHOUT MEN?!? If so, why be bi-sexual? We've been together for three years now, and broke up in the middle there, about a year back, and while we did, she dated a few guys...

She says Im the only female she's ever wanted... what does that mean or say? And before the posts ask... "why not talk or ask her about it?"... I have, and she gets defensive and grawr about it... so... what's a lesbian who is repulsed by men to do when she's in love with a bi-sexual? lol...

Thanks for reading-posting....

Tottles, Tab