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When did lean people need to feel guilty about their weight?

 

I work in an office setting where 95% of people are significantly over weight for their height and age.

 

I’m 25 year old, 5’7”, and weight 130 lb. I’m training for a marathon.  What bother’s me is when Monday morning comes, my colleague would politely ask what did I did the past weekend. I would usually reply with something involving sports or running, because I was. I like to stay active so I can lose the 5 lbs that I gained after I started working for this company.

 

My colleagues would often say,  “are you trying to lose weight, what weight do you have to lose, you’re skinny already” It makes me feel guilty when I’m speaking about trying to lose the 5 lbs. I know I’m within weight for my height. I’m not anorexic. I eat healthy meals and the right portion. So why am I made to feel like I'm unhealthy for wanting to lose a few pounds?

 

When talking about my goal to lose a few pounds, I get this evil look from them. As if I’m crucifying them for their weigh. This leads me to think, when did being lean/skinny become the new shame? It’s like discrimination for skinny people. Is a having a few extra pound the new fad?


espejitoespejito's picture

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Yup (new fad).

 

 

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itisnogood's picture

Nah. Us fat people are just

Nah. Us fat people are just insecure.

:D

8675309's picture

The worst . . .

The worst is when you go to dinner with people and you order something "healthy" and everyone feels they have to make comments like: "what are you on a diet?" "You don't need to diet".

No I'm not on a diet, this is how I eat!

I like how look and feel when I eat "healthy" so that's how I eat most of the time, of course not all the time ;-)  I can't help if if other people only eat that way when they are "on a diet"!

cazzypants's picture

I hear ya!

I'm constantly scrutinised when eating. I'm 5ft5 and weigh about 105lbs, but this is down to good eating, exercise and my natural build.  I'm not overtly healthy - I enjoy the odd choccie bar as much as the next person, but I tend to prefer food at the more nutritional end of the spectrum.  I always get grief when I eat out if I pass on dessert, or don't go for the pizza with quadruple cheese option :/

Jo16's picture

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i know what you mean, it's like that for me at work but without the meanness.

i work at dominos pizza and at the end of each shift (or if uv worked all day whenever you want) you can have a free pizza, dont get me wrong i love that about it, it may just be the best job in the world for a 16 year old doin part time. but when i try to limit myself to one pizza a week their all like what you talking about your skinny, and im like yeah but i wont be if i eat pizza every night as well as my normal tea (dinner) 

i do feel pressured to eat them lol i eat absolute crap as it is and manage to stay slim but with the pizza on top it doenst matter how good your metabolism is you're gonna put on weight, they don't seem to understand that though.

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espejitoespejito's picture

About fat.

Ok, I´ve totally worn working all day and now I feel like deconstructing something a bit "lighter"(hehe), so I am bringing this back up.

A humans MO is to reduce energy consumption, aided by tools and technology. Nowadays our energy consumption is pretty economic. We rely on gadgets for everything, we live out social interactions in hyper-realities. Daily activities that once allowed us to burn a reasonable amount of calories while trying to survive have been dramatically reduced. Genetic predisposition towards obesity enhanced by chemically altered food is also an important factor.And of course we cannot forget that little thing called money.

Eating healthy/being healthy are shifting concepts subject to trends and not absolute truths. In fact, our understanding of Pizza as an unhealthy food in comparison to a plate of Spinach is no more then a trend. When pizza could in fact be understood as the epitomy of what many consider the healthiest cultural "diet"; bread,oil,tomato, and cheese are the building blocks of modern mediterranean gastronomy(cuz btw, these damn europeans would not have tomatoes had they not discovered Mexico).

Obesity is a problem because modern living has made it a problem, living longer with a total reduction of physical activity puts our bodies at risk for numerous illnesses. Obesity is frowned upon because our aesthetic conception has shifted, as always in the direction of what is singular and uncommon(where that which is singular is beauty). Not long ago, a similar situation to what you are narrating, was the norm. In a world that is starving, a woman with some meat on her bones, someone who today would be called fat, is considered a peculiar find, a manifestation of beauty(where beauty is life). A thin woman, today considered healthy would be seen as lacking. And a Nicole Richie, Paris Hilton-like bodyframe would be considered the consequence of disease.

Our perception is being forced into a change by our politics(and I'm not talking about republican vs dem kind of thing). There is no better example , then having a slightly voluptous "sexiest woman in the world" in comparison to for example, Kate Moss. Many parts of the political power behind change are only natural, others are forced. Forced by this new language we are creating, were anything that may be found offensive is being eliminated.

As a healthy/thin/lean/skinny woman you have been told that what you are doing is correct, and whilst it is unintentional and unavoidable (conditioned by experience) on your part, any comment you make in reference to this, translates to your "heavier" co-workers as judgement passed on their non-healthy habits. As if being overweight were a character flaw, a reflection on their ability, self-control, etc. For me it is no surprise you are met with negative reactions. But either way, I would consider it involuntary.

After all this redundent and convoluted bs, my conclusion is (with no intention of offending) tough shit. It is just another situation you will probably have to endure the rest of your life, considering "shifting" is a very slow process, and it has barely begun. And if you compare feeling discriminated by a few based on your body size, to being judged by many considering you body size a negative reflection on you character...well I'm just guessing, but it is probably not that bad.

I should probably hand out prizes to anyone who actually reads this from start to finish. hehe.

 

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gali's picture

In other words..perhaps you

In other words..perhaps you are suffering from a luxery problem compared to your too heavy co workers.( for those who did not read from start to finish) And may I add that perhaps the "nasty"looks you get are a result of your co workers viewing your not realising yours to be a luxery problem as insensitive! Rather than a result of your weight? Just a theory!

So, E.! What is the prize and do I get a bonus for recapping? :)

 

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Paperback Writer's picture

Hmm, very interesting

Hmm, very interesting comments. Yes. I read them all.

I get barked at for eating so little, and saying i want to lose more. I don't know how i feel. My friends are heavier than me. But at the same time, i have a horrible body image. I just feel very fat. I have forced myself to throw up many times a long time ago. I don't anymore, but i still feel this intensely bad feeling when i eat more than i feel is "right". So, i just eat very little, which is backlash when my friendsa are snacking and i say i don't want to eat anything.

Although, what i think is funny, is that have you ever noticed that everyone is on the patrol for anorexics, yet no one cares if you're overweight. Its like we're getting two messages "Americans eat too much. We're all fat as hell" and "God, anorexia is horrible. Anorexia is super bad"

I don't know, im a little tired tonight, so my thoughts are a little choppy.

gali's picture

Paperback-writer!

I think both are not good but overweight is not good physically speaking whereas anorexia is also very not good mentally in a dangerous way.I have been there in many ways and "choppy thoughts" can actually also be a sign of lack of nutrients! What you are saying I think is worrisome. Please go talk to someone! It is not a "good" sign to feel like you do!

 

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Brilliant_I's picture

No matter what they say, I like being thin(ner)

I am 5'9" and 155lb which, according to this one site is a healthy weight, but I feel heavy. I used to weight 130lbs two years ago and loved it, I looked good and felt even better. I'm trying to get that number back but without much luck ;( I work out and try to eat healthy, but have a suspicion that the problem is that I'm just not very happy right now.

I know that 'thin' of today would've meant 'skeleton' in the past, but I don't care, because I look and feel better when I'm thinner.

chickiebos's picture

Flip Side

I wouldn't necessarily say everyone who gives you the evil eye is insecure. I'm not all that thin, so my perspective is one of just being tired of hearing about weight at all and everyone making it seem so important. So, when I encounter people like you who like to be active and are working on losing 5 or 10lbs when they don't need to, relatively speaking, I feel like they are silently judgmental of overweight people or people who don't like to be as active in their heads...because a lot of thin people are...and even many people who aren't thin.

Thinner people and overweight people aren't that different in terms of feeling crucified and getting tired of it. The thing about people at your job is they partially bring what I'm describing as feeling around people like you on themselves by asking you what you do on the weekend, and should know better by now what you're probably going to say.

On the other hand, if you want to lose some lbs, what's the point in mentioning that to these people (assuming you have)? It really does feel like a hidden message sometimes when thinner people mention wanting to lose weight to people who are always hearing from society in some form that they need to lose weight and would need to lose a lot more than 5-10lbs...kind of like, "Well, if I'm trying to lose a few lbs and you're bigger than me, then you know you need to be trying to lose weight!" And maybe that is some insecurity there, but it's also just the fact that you don't always know what someone really is thinking and what they really mean by what they say. I wouldn't be giving you the evil eye at work for that, but I honestly would be thinking you're crazy to myself. It's not for you to feel guilty about, although people with any kind of "advantage" in the world do end up feeling guilty when people point it out.

Still, the thing to realize is--to each his own. Different people are satisfied with different activity levels, will accept different weights, think your weight would be ideal for them or would be upset with your weight/see it as something to work on...and so on. There shouldn't be just one standard when it comes to weight and staying fit, but we all tend to feel like there is.

Paperback Writer's picture

Gali!

Hey! For real, don't be worried. I weigh 5'5" and i weigh 115 lbs. And while i still don't feel "perfect", i still eat. I just eat little amounts. I found that eating less is makes me feel more emotional "stable" that eating too much and feeling horrible, not only because of the psychological factor, but because i have a small stomach and i get full quickly. I started getting a bad body image when i weighed 155 lbs (yikes!)

By the way, i didn't really realize that by saying I wanted to lose weight, people who are heavier than be "should". That is not my case, but i could see how it could be interpreted that way.

Personally, i don't tell people i want to lose weight, its just, like, if someone is eating something really carby (i.e. pizza, fries, brownies) and i don't want to eat it because i know i'll feel bad, they seem annoyed that i don't say yes, and they're like "Lauren, you never eat, you need to eat more", and its just annoying.

But yep, recovering Bulimic (haven't done any of that since, oh, 8 months ago), and definitely not an anorexic)

My point about the obesity/anorexia clash is that, like, jeez 0.3% (wiki) of the population has anorexia, but yet, over a third of the population is overweight. Yet in the media, both "weigh" in the same. It's a little ridiculous.

Rebecca_F's picture

The worst comment

My best friend in college was over weight. We were the greatest friends and I her weight never factored into any interaction, conversation, or feeling I had towards her. One day she told me that looking at me made her feel terrible about herself. I had never thought anything like that would ever come out of anyone's mouth. My metabolism must be set on high, because I eat what I want when I want, and her saying that made me feel like a monster. It's not my fault I was born this way.
queeniefakesit's picture

losing weight.

well, when someone who's thin, and looks like they alredy have an advantage, talks about wanting to lose weight, it sounds strange to them because they're fat. they want to lose weight, like 30 lbs type weight, so to hear someone talk about trying to lose 5 lbs is like 'wtf ever'. i'm about 5'8, 128 lbs (last i checked) and i mentioned wanting to go to the gym, and people are like 'why in the hell?" like the only reason people go to the gym is to lose weight. i want to go because i have a lot of toning i need to do.

 

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The Emperor Has No Clothes's picture

If I worked in an office

If I worked in an office where 95% of the people were overweight, i probably wouldn't talk about wanting to lose 5 lbs and just focus on the training part. Women can be so competitive and snarky about weight and it sounds like you already got the vibe that the people in your office don't relate positively to the 5 lbs you want to use so if I were you, I'd learn from it and move on.


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