AE: So, with this guyâ€”you said you werenâ€™t dating him at the time. Are you with him now?
SR: No, no, I mean, we hadnâ€™t been together for six or seven months when I talked to him, and we havenâ€™t ever been together since.
AE: So how about your relationship with Kimâ€”do you think that was portrayed accurately?
SR: Yes and no. I kind of feel like they made it look like I was a lot more involved versus Kim, but we really [were] on the same page more or less, because I knew she had a girlfriend and she knew that I was semi seeing somebody. I donâ€™t know, it kind of seemed like they made me like come off as the foolish one, when really I wasnâ€™t at all, and Iâ€™m not now. So I didnâ€™t appreciate that, but yeah, whatever. (Laughs)
AE: Tell me what really happened.
SR: They showed what happened, but in interviews they cut off a lot of what I was saying to make me seem like the needy, feeble, straight 18-year-old girl, and Kim was like the all-wise lesbian, which really wasnâ€™t the case. I mean, we were on the same terms. I thought we were on the same page, and she thought the same. So, itâ€™s fine (laughs).
AE: I think that many viewers actually feel that she treated you unfairly, that she was being more of a player than a friend to you. How do you feel about that?
SR: Thatâ€™s pretty much what I mean. In the end I know what happened, she knows what happened, and the way that they edited it does make me come off as a fool and her being all powerful, but I know how it was and so does she. And weâ€™re fine now, weâ€™re friends, itâ€™s really quite fine. Iâ€™m not mad at her.
AE: So youâ€™re still in touch with her?
SR: Sheâ€™s still with her girlfriend and Iâ€™m with someone, so itâ€™s fine.
AE: Are you in touch with any of the other girls on the show?
SR: Me and Kyle talk sometimes, me and Diane, and Coryn now and then, we talk.
AE: Did you tell you family about what was going to happen before it aired, or were you not allowed to talk about it until the airdate?
SR: We werenâ€™t really allowed to talk about anything. I kind of hinted at it, so I think they were kind of sort of expecting it, a little bit, so they were okay.
AE: How have they reacted to it? Have they talked to you about it at all?
SR: No, itâ€™s kind of one of those unspoken things no one talks about it. No one mentions it or says anything about it, so itâ€™s kind of like it didnâ€™t happen, here. Iâ€™m from Boonville, Missouri, and the Midwest is very very different from L.A. [Itâ€™s] not as accepting, we donâ€™t really have that many lesbian people or gay people or whatever out here at all, and no one really wants to talk about it, so we donâ€™t. We donâ€™t even say the word â€œlesbianâ€! (Laughs) Itâ€™s really different here, so, no, I actually have never talked about it with my mom or dad or anybody.
AE: Wow. Do you think that they might want to talk about it? Do you want to talk about it?
SR: I would if they wanted to, but they donâ€™t seem to even want to acknowledge it at all. I mean, I donâ€™t consider myself bisexual or a lesbian, so Iâ€™m not even sure what I would say to them at this point about it at all, so Iâ€™m kind of glad they donâ€™t want to talk about it, I guess (laughs).
AE: Do you think, though, even if you donâ€™t identify as lesbian or bisexual, do you think you just might not be straight?
SR: I donâ€™t know. I really donâ€™t know what constitutes as being considered one or the other. I donâ€™t know, you tell me! (laughs) Kimâ€™s the only person Iâ€™ve ever had feelings for, I guess, in that sense.
AE: In your parting words on the show, you said that you learned a lot about yourself. Tell me about something that you learned that has nothing to do with Kim.
SR: Iâ€™m a lot more confident and I have [more] respect for myself versus from before. I always had a low self-esteem and I didnâ€™t like myself at all, and I didnâ€™t think I could do anything, you know? I hated myself at one point in my life and the show has really brought out my confidence. I can honestly say that I like who I am today, and I have never been able to say that before, so Iâ€™m really thankful for the show in that way.
AE: Thatâ€™s wonderful. What was your most unexpected experience on the show?
SR: Kim, for sure. That would definitely be it.