TV Land’s new reality show, High School Reunion, which premieres
tonight, reunites classmates from a Texas high
school 20 years later in a beautiful Maui
setting. The show brings together the grown-up versions of various typical high
school identities such as "the jock," "the popular girl"
and "the bully," as well as identities that emerged some time after
high school, including "the lesbian," embodied by Kat Feller.
Now an animation voice-over
actor who lives in the Los Angeles
area, Feller dated boys during high school but considered herself a closeted
lesbian who was never able to truly be herself with her classmates. In the
first episode, she comes out to her former classmates and shares details of her
lesbian life since graduation. But Feller also reveals another motive for
joining the reunion: She’s thinking about dating men again and wants to explore
her bi-curious side with her old classmates.
She recently talked with
AfterEllen.com about how it felt to come out her classmates, going on a date
with the most popular boy in school, and who she had a crush on back in the
AfterEllen.com: You’re identified on the show as
"the lesbian." You say on the show that you really bloomed after high
school when you started living as a lesbian. When was that?
Kat Feller: I came out to
my family about a year after I was actually out to my self. And that was about
at the age of 21. … Maybe two or three years after high school I started identifying
with it and understanding exactly the way I was feeling and knowing that I’d
had these feelings for a really long time. I mean, elementary school long time.
But just being too scared to even think about what was going through my head.
AE: Early on in the series you come out to your
classmates, and then very soon after that you tell them you are interested in
exploring dating men again. Can you tell us about that decision?
KF: Over the years as I’ve
gotten older, I’ve become a little bit more open. In my 20s, I was anti-man and
that sort of thing. I think men are great as people and beautiful as people. I
am physically way more drawn to women still and I know that I always will be,
but part of me doesn’t want to be so closed off — but I also can’t see myself
being with a man long-term. I don’t even feel like I’d be comfortable going on
a true date with a guy.
To be honest with you, it makes me a little
uncomfortable just to think about it, because it’s just so foreign. But it
makes me a little bit curious because it has been so long since I’ve been on a
date with a guy, so as I’ve gotten older I’ve gotten just really curious to see
what it would be like to go on a date with a guy. So that’s where that came
Coming out to my classmates on TV and finally
getting to come out to them 20 years after the fact was an amazing experience
for me, as far as that goes. It was like a huge weight was lifted off my
shoulders. It felt really, really good to be myself.
AE: Among your women classmates, was there anyone
whose reaction to your coming out really surprised you?
KF: You know what? Out of
all the women who were there who I confessed to or told my secret to, every
single one of them were completely supportive, excited actually, like "Oh,
really?" Very inquisitive. They were like, "Tell us about it."
It was funny because when everyone was talking
about their relationships, they were like, "My boyfriend does this, my
boyfriend does that," and I was like, "Yeah, I’ve been in a
relationship for the last five years." And they were like, "What does
he do?" And I’m thinking, "Why does it always have to be a he?"
I was like, "She,"
and they were like, "Whoa!" They were all surprised a little bit, but
not in a negative way.
It was very positive. Never once did I get a
negative response at all. Honest. It made me feel really comfortable the whole
show. It was nice.