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Riding the bus with myself — Jenny, resplendent in fake tiara and mangy fur, gets on a bus. There's a girl on the bus; Jenny smiles at her and sits next to her and holds her and cries. Yeah, this is not a girl on a bus; it's inner child Jenny. And I'm kinda sad for both of them, and I want them to be ok and come back together at some point. In a real way.

The ambulance — Bette holds Tina and they both hold on as they go to the hospital. Bette hollers at the driver to hurry up, but sometimes even the alpha cannot command. The center cannot hold. The alpha cannot scold!

Jenny, on the bus, sees the ambulance go by. Saxifrage.

What? If this whole thing can be called "Lacuna," I can say "saxifrage."

The hospital — Tina feels like she's failing everyone. Bette tries to tell her she's amazing, but Tina's kinda crossed over into crying-land. And it is emotional indeed, as the baby arrives, but at the same time it's kinda uncomfortable. Bette wants to cut the cord, but it's not allowed for sterility reasons, but Bette and Tina's doctor says to let Bette do it anyway. Hmm.

Tina says the baby's name is Angelica, and even though I wouldn't ordinarily be fond of that, it works.

Tina starts to not do well, so they get her stitched up and take her to the ICU. Gah.

The tub — Jenny's... well, she's there. In the tub. And she's obviously hurting. She gets out and gets her compact, where she keeps (or has been hiding?) a razor blade.

Out in the hallway, Shane is talking to somebody about Bette and Tina, telling them she and Carmen will be right there and "I'm speechless." Shane and Carmen look happy.

But then they hear a cry and a sob from the bathroom — the kind of sob that stops your blood cold. Shane goes in, to find Jenny on the floor, slicing her thighs. And Shane holds her, and waits, and holds, and says "Honey. Jenny." And finds a towel to stop the bleeding. And I like Shane a helluva lot right now, and just want to hold Jenny the way that Shane is holding her, and just want us all to hang on however we can.

Shane: "We're gonna get you help. We'll get you help. Okay?"
Jenny: "I need help. Don't I. I'm really fucked up."
Shane: "We'll get you help. All right?"
Jenny: "Okay."

Jenny just shakes her head. Hold on. Just hold.

Shane gives Jenny the good news about the baby, and Jenny laughs and grins in that open broken great Jenny way.

Jenny: "That's beautiful. That's great. Oh my god."

And they hug. I think that about sums up the season, don't you?

The baby — There's Bette, holding the baby, sitting in a rocking chair, looking unutterably gorgeous and making me think about the kid thing despite my complete lack of any maternal instinct whatsoever.

Bette tells them all that Tina's in recovery but is going to be fine. Whew. And dammit for making us worry about that.

Bette introduces them all to Angelica, and passes the lovely kid to her Aunt Kit, who is beside herself again. She kisses her niece and loves her in that full-on Kit way.

Dana is next; she has a maternal streak of her own and shares the love with Alice, who smiles in her sweet way. Carmen is next as Alice and Dana cuddle; Carmen kisses Angelica in a strong steady way and hands her to ready, waiting Jenny.

The moment with Jenny is kinda important... Jenny is open and full and afraid of wonder (so says Heart) and wants this moment. She says "Hi, little one... you are so beautiful." And she looks around and smiles, and hands the little one to confused, lovable Shane.

Shane says, "You have tiny feet," and everyone laughs. And then Angelica is back in the arms of her mom and her aunt. And everyone else is smiling and amazed.

Kit: "You are gonna have a very, very interesting life, you know that? Because we are some very, very interesting people."

Bette takes Angelica and holds her close, and says "This is your family."

Yeah.

Sweet Honey in the Rock sings us out with a dyke classic ("Testimony") that might actually represent us L folks. Nice.

Seeya next season. Stay strong, y'all.

Editor's Note: Scribe Grrrl will be recapping the new (and final) season of Queer as Folk, beginning with the premiere this Sunday (you can read her recaps of last season's QAF episodes here).

So check back on AfterEllen.com early next week for those!

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