AE: You are directing now, have you thought about turning these into movies?
AB: Yeah, the book is out with producers right now and I would be down for someone doing something with it.
AE: And television appeals to you more then film?
AB: I would love to do both. I’d made a couple of little indie films before I did Drones, the film that I just co-directed with Adam Busch (Warren on Buffy and Amber’s long-term partner), but those were more like learning experiences. Drones is like a real deal movie and I’m really proud of it. We have an amazing cast. The folk singer Dan Bern wrote four original songs for us.
AE: How do you feel about the celebrities who are still in the closet?
AB: It’s rough. I understand why they don’t come out. We still live in a society where being gay does not make you equal. So, you want to work and you don’t want to be pigeonholed or marginalized, so you just stay quiet. I think it’s a Catch-22 because it sets the example that it’s not OK to be who you are, but on the other hand, being honest can limit your ability to get a job.
AE: True I mean we are just now at the point where it is okay to play gay.
AB: Exactly — people have a hard time with it. Like how can someone play straight if they’re gay? Well, I’m an actor I can be whatever you want me to be. I mean, I could play a dog if you want. The whole thing is just so asinine.
AE: How are you making the experiences of being an actor, director and novelist work together?
AB: Basically, I’m just trying to pay my bills. These days you have to sort of cobble together a career. You can’t just say, “I’m going to be and actor” and then make a living at it. I mean, you’re making like a $100 dollars a day on these indie films, and that’s if you’re lucky and get paid at all.
You can’t survive just doing one thing. You have to diversify. And everyone I know is in the same boat that I’m in. We’re all barely eeking out an existence. I guess I could get a normal job with benefits, but I choose to sit in front of my computer and write instead.
AE: Do you think that you will always be acting, are there characters that you imagine yourself playing or are you moving more towards directing and other things?
AB: I guess I’m moving away from the acting. I’m still down to do whatever but it seems to be something that’s happening to me. It’s not really a choice. It’s so hard to get a job these days. People always ask me why I did this bad movie or that bad movie, but to me it’s just a job that pays the bills.
The only thing that I turned down — well, actually, I didn’t turn it down, I just didn’t go to the audition, was a Charles Manson biopic. I felt like there were still people whose lives are being affected by those murders and I just didn’t want to be a part of all that. I’m not judging anyone. It just wasn’t the right thing for me. To each their own. I just wasn’t feelin’ it. But if anyone has a job they want to throw my way, I’m down. I love to work!
AE: Did you ever run into fans that expressed their disappointment to you when learning that you were not in fact really gay?
AB: Boy, I’d never want for company if I liked the ladies. I always have pretty girls bemoaning the fact I’m not gay.