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Across the Page: Young Adults

Annie on My Mind by Nancy Garden (Farrar, Straus and Giroux)

Not that I'd have been brave enough to purchase one, but as a teenager growing up before the advent of the internet, I had no idea there was even such a thing as a lesbian-themed book. I was wrong.

Annie on My Mind, Nancy Garden's classic love story of Eliza (Liza) Winthrop and Annie Kenton, was first published in 1982. The novel was included in the American Library Association's Best of the Best for Young Adults list, and the recent commemorative edition includes an enlightening interview with the Lambda Book Award-winning author.

The book opens with Liza in her dorm room at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology. She is attempting to finish a paper on Frank Lloyd Wright, but instead begins a letter to Annie, whom she hasn't spoken to in months. "What I have to do," she writes, "before I can mail you a letter, is sort out what happened."

This "sorting out" is the basis for the story, which is told from Liza's point of view and kicks off with their first meeting at the Metropolitan Museum of Art. The attraction is immediate and intense: "We looked at each other, really looked, I mean, for the first time, and for a moment or two I don't think I could have told anyone my name, let alone where I was."

To deal with this energy, both frightening and exhilarating, the young women don masks and act as though they were characters in a King Arthur story. When Annie grows tired of playing "the medieval damsel" and Liza the "sir knight," the two finally begin to connect on a deeper level.

"It was like a war inside me," Liza describes of her affection for Annie, which feels natural and beautiful, and the conflicting belief that her behavior is aberrant. Eventually, she follows her heart — and, like most closeted teens in love, it is a heart bursting with equal amounts passion and fear.

Annie on My Mind is a traditional love story, except instead of boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy tries to get girl back, it's girl meets girl, girl loses girl, girl tries to get girl back. From the beginning, the reader knows that all will not turn out well. The scandal that ultimately separates the couple is not only heartbreaking and poignant; it threatens to close down Liza's private school in Brooklyn.

But if the public consequences of Liza's sexuality are a bit dated, the private ones are ubiquitous. In many ways, Annie on My Mind shows just how far we've come legally over the past 25 years. The interior process of growing up as a lesbian teen, however, still rings true.

"I'd never consciously thought about being gay," Liza reflects, "But it also seemed true that if I were, that might pull together not only what had been happening between me and Annie all along and how I felt about her, but also a lot of things in my life before I'd known her."

Garden, the author of several other LGBT books, including Molly's Family and Hear Us Out! Lesbian and Gay Stories of Struggle, Progress, and Hope, 1950 to the Present, dedicated Annie on My Mind to "All of us." Certainly, if you missed this coming-of-age/coming-out story the first time around, there is still plenty to relate to and enjoy even now.

rudua's picture

Annie

I literally just read Annie on My Mind - I stayed up all night reading because I just could not put it down. I didn't realize that the book was so old, so was baffled by the scandal Liza and Annie's relationship caused. But even though a lot of the book is outdated, I wish someone would've recommended it to me when I was a teenager and really could've used someone to identify with. I'm lucky to live in a time and society where being gay just isn't that big of a deal (I think it's probably a lot easier to be gay here, than in the USA). I knew my friends and family probably wouldn't mind at all - and yet, because I didn't know just what being gay meant, I spent way too many years trying to figure it out, instead of just being.

I really enjoy YA literature, so I'll keep my eyes open for those other two books!

evolve's picture

I remember..

the day I went to library and checked out 'Annie on my Mind.'  I remember not being able to put it down but always looking over my shoulder: "Can anybody see me?"  "Will they know?"
It really was an awakening for me, life changing in a way - to know that beyond what felt like the four walls of my hometown - that there were people like me out there who were also struggling to find their way.

Sportylady's picture

Sister

I'm going to reccommend these to my teenage sister.  She's really into gay/lesbian fiction right now and she's having a hard time finding things to read.  I read a lot of it too so we definitely have something else that connects us (she's 16 and openly bi).  I'm sure I'll be reading them too.  I wish I had known about stories like these when I was in high school, but then again, I may not have had the courage to buy them unlike her.  Thanks for the review!

KineticStillness's picture

I'm pretty sure her name in

I'm pretty sure her name in Annie on My Mind is Kenyon, not Kenton.  Lit geek that I am, I always remember the literature insta-analyzer in my head reading her flowing name as indicative of her nature in the book hence the soft 'y' instead of the hard 't'.  Yes, I think these things while I read...it's a curse! 

Also, doesn't the cover on the book Rules for Hearts look like Idgie and Ruth's hands during that one scene where they are playing cards?  Just me then...

I can honestly say that Annie on My Mind was the first lesbian book I checked out of the library.  I was so scared because it had the two characters on the front holding hands and staring lovingly into each other's eyes and I just KNEW that the librarian was going to know everything about me and probably put me on some list or something.  Ha! 

And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.  - Nin

Rain's picture

Annie

Some interesting statistics here about the book:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Annie_on_My_Mind

Banned, burned, removed. And anyone who has ever read it, who is not a close minded twit, would seriously wonder why...
Natazzz's picture

Annie on my mind...

...brings back memories of a long ago time. High school. When I was young, innocent and confused and I happened to find a copy of Annie on my mind at the local library. Such a great book....

Melissa Hsu's picture

Thanks Miss

I was 12 when a teacher recommended Annie on my Mind to me...I guess I wasn't as subtle as I thought with the leering...It was probably the first time I confronted my feelings as reality rather than some sort of fantastical phase. The best lesson I ever learnt at school, well that and how not to do mascara. Seriously I've never had a teacher with decent eye makeup.
justtosay's picture

as for J A Peters

I just had to say that if a book really needs to be read that fits into this group of fiction it is  one of Julie Ann Peters other books called 'Keeping you a Secret' (2003) and is a realy good read especialy in this oft overlooked catagory.  
YELLAH12's picture

the house on the way

i think that was the name of the first lesbian book i had ever read . i too couldnt put it down nor told anyone what it was about lol .

and keeping you a secret to me was almost like sexualy fustrating lol and i dont know why .

the best book i have read so far is "same sex in the city", its a great book but some girl stole it from me last year!

A.L.'s picture

I think

the book you mean is The House You Pass On The Way by Jacqueline Woodson? And I think Keeping you a Secret was sexually frustrating too. It's what over half the book was about me thinks.
Coldale's picture

Annie on my mind

This is possibly one of the best gay books I have ever read, in fact I still read this to my G/F every few years and we are well into our 30's.


A.L.'s picture

I've read

Grl2Grl and Annie on My Mind. I loved Annie on my Mind and I enjoyed Grl2Grl very much. I haven't read Empress of the World since my library seems to have 'lost it' even though it's on file. Keeping You A Secret is really good too and so is The House You Pass On The Way. Am I Blue is a good collection of coming out stories for teenage guys and girls. I'm trying to think of some more books but I keep mixing them with adult ones.
logansrun98's picture

"lost" books

It's amazing the tactics of some people... often times instead of formally challenging a book on a local library's shelves, someone will just remove it themselves or deface it in some way (ripping out pages, blacking out parts). Some libraries will place LGBT and other "objectionable" books in a back room or shelf where kids have to ask the librarian for them or worse, get their parents' permission (and yes, I am a parent myself), especially at school libraries. It's pathetic! You can always use a tactic of your own... check out your library's catalog, purchase some books they don't have and donate them! All libraries will have a collection management policy and so there is a chance your books won't be added for some reason, but most libraries are bastions of intellectual freedom and this is something that most librarians hold dear to their hearts.
Gigi's picture

Hey Dollface

I just re-read this book "Hey Dollface" by Deborah Hautzig that I had read when I was 12(I"m 30 now) and enjoyed it a lot. More than I did at 12 actually. I don't know if it could be classified as a coming out story per se b/c the main character never comes to the conclusion that she is a lesbian but it does deal w/ the attraction btwn her & her best friend and is very well written. I'd recommend it. And what was ironic was when I was buying it off of Amazon the first thing that came up was "if you like this book you'll also enjoy 'Annie on my Mind" and I was thinking of buying it but didn't. Now I am def. going to!
The Magus's picture

I just read Annie on My Mind

I just read Annie on My Mind last evening. I sat down and read it in its entirety in 4 hours. I must say, it has been ages since I have related to a character as deeply as I did with Liza Windthrop...

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"Thanks to: un-encouraging parents everywhere for giving their children the will to show them up, and to the white macho-american male for reminding the small percent who are capable of recognizing injustice

logansrun98's picture

annie and others

As a librarian, I can tell you that not only was Annie challenged then but it remains one of the most challenged books to this day.  I love YA books and am pleased to see the evolution of YA fiction. YA fic with GLBT characters and themes are much easier to get a hold of now then in the past. If you like GLBT YA books try these too: David Levithan's books, Absolutely Positively Not (LaRochelle), The Bermudez Triangle (Johnson), Alex Sanchez's books, Totally Joe (Howe), My Heartbeat (Freymann-Weyr), Talk (Koja), A Really Nice Prom Mess (Sloan), to name a few. Some are better than others and we definitely need more YA fic for young lesbians (with lesbians as the characters), but it has come a long way.  And one of the funniest books to "come out" (get it?) in awhile is When I Knew edited by Robert Trachtenberg. Check it out, you won't be sorry.

Oh and while you're at the library check out these picture books for children: And Tango Makes Three - one of the most controversial books of the last couple of years (Richardson), Antonio's Card (Gonzalez), King and King (de Haan), Molly's Family (by Nancy Garden!) and of course the classics, Heather has Two Mommies and Daddy's Roommate. Happy reading!

Lourdes's picture

these books

I'm a librarian too, (kinda-an assistant) and I've read most of the books you mentioned here...but the library I work at doesn't own a lot of these books. I've even talked to some of the librarians and told them that we really need to get more LGBT themed books, but nothing happens. Just like a lot of you posted above, I also had trouble checking these books out. Especially because the librarians I work with would see the titles (Annie On My Mind, so on) and ask about them. Luckily I have more access to them, but not enough options :(
Melissa Hsu's picture

Books with lesbian characters

In all honesty I didn't care much for Rules of the Heart, it had its interesting moments but overall I thought the character was too nice and in that sense unrealistic. Annie on my Mind bothered me in a few ways because it strayed from the characters sometimes and they seemed immature but the inclusion of mythology and feeling first love was nice. Keeping you a Secret to me was a decent book but wasn't as good as Dare,Truth or Promise. It's rare to find a book where both of the characters are likebale. A Buffy the Vampire Slayer book that I liked very much was Dark Congress because (spoiler) Kennedy cheats on Willow and soon after Willow is allowed to be with Tara again, which was beautiful. The book Parrotfish by the same author who created the book Hard Love has a trangendered main character and that seemed interesting. I have to say I enjoy all of the JD Glass's books and am looking forward to American Goth coming out this month.
Courtney 's picture

Annie on My Mind....

I ordered that book a few months ago from Barnes and Noble... when it came in the mail, I was so afraid my mom would see it and say "And what is THIS?" Luckily, she didn't seem to pay any attention... It was a great book, a little immature, but very good for the time it was written. It made me feel a hell of a lot better about myself.
Smashley!! O_o's picture

Annie...

I just finished Annie on My Mind like, ten minutes ago for the first time. It is so incredibly(sp?) well writtn, i had  hard time even putting it down to go to a haunted house with my friend Marissa and her friend Michelle last night. Me and marissa had a sleepover last night after that, and the whole time i kept eyeing Annie on My Mind, wishing i could pick it back up and read it some more. I have always said that the Twilight books were my favorite, but this is so much better. The fact that I can relate to it so much more is I think why it loved Annie so much more. I was so close to crying  at the end! It really is beatifully written. I've only ever read one other lesbian-based book, Sugar Rush, which when i read it thought it was really good, but now that i've read this it seems so...i don't know, i was just so filled with sex, etc. It wasn't classy like Annie On My Mind is.
Darcy's picture

not just another story

the thing that really set annie on my mind apart from other books for me was that there was so much to the backstory. as a very confused younger girl, i sought out lots of young adult gay fiction and read quite a bit. unfortunately, the genre is still very limiting and so while some of the books are truly remarkable, some are lacking in general writing skills or consist of thin plots. annie on my mind really took the time to paint details into the story, like the trial over the ear piercing to the wild imaginations of the two girls. of course the book wouldn't be the same if it wasn't gay, but the story seemed elaborate enough to me that if it was a book about two heterosexual friends, i still would have enjoyed it. it is the "class" that smashley references that makes annie the number one on my list. 

 

i also highly reccomend david levithan's boy meets boy for a touching gay love story. he throws convention out the window to create a world where prejudice and fear are barely even afterthoughts, and the setting really allows the story to take off without the usual complications that make young gay reading somewhat homogenous.